sooo i know that most people use this thing for pictures that they like or that relate to their thoughts but i decided that i might sometimes use this for words. My posts wont be gramar correct nor spelling. anyway i wanted to write things down. its two in the morning and i need to do school work however if i use my time like i normally do i have plenty of time not to do work. i gage the time i have not to do work and then the time i have left is when i do the work. you see sometimes i do things backwords. i even think in reverse sometimes and dont realize that what i have done works untill after the fact. im a simple person with a simple mind that likes to do things in complex ways. if it were up to me one day i would become a photographer or an artist maybe a poet with words on a page that pain a pictuure words that actually say things but are pictures. i love that concept the pictures in my mind i want to share them but it seems that i have not been able to yet. it is two in the morning and i have a headache from stress. all the thoughts of work and things that need to be done but yet are not actually done. its strange. i would rather not do them so then i am forced to do them. it would be kool if the world kinda sorta rendered. if when a door was shut everything that you couldent see or precieve was just still and and then when taht door was to open it would start up again. but of course it doesnt work taht way. i had a great lit teacher tell me something. i used to think that because i could think and not prove taht otheres could think that i was the only one who kinda actually existed but not really well this one lit teacher of mine told me. i was not special. everyone is the same and that is what i love about man kind we are the same and different we are all cruel and lovely we are beautifualy deadly there is evil and light death and life people are short and tall wise and dumb. people are people we are everything arround us and everyone is a part of us. i love it and the part of it that is commonly called life.